it is too loud here; can hardly hear my breathing. start to think of something silent but rapid rewind repeats. the color of claws from holding on; the collection of dirt under fingernails. water vapor forming shapes: allowed to imagine what is not there; water vapor blurring shapes: forced to misconstrue what cannot be seen. asking questions without words the answers are already clear; a circle drawn in ink to encapsulate what was never there. yesterday began with nothing and today there is a little less. happiness in a smile as a response to a laugh; sadness in a smile as a response to what can no longer be responded to. the burden lightens as it hollows hollow thoughts to clear my head; limbs weaken salted swallows swimming further out to sea. a breath held too long turns toxic; a grip held too tight too. a breath held too long as a final hope; a grip held too long too. letting go as a cause for nothing else.