i reach i grasp i hold on too. i think i thought i misconstrue. to contain to encapsulate to exist where one was left as one was left. to remember to reminisce still stuck lifetimes in a head. the flicker the fade the force-forgotten memories. the flicker the fade lungs burning as i breathe. to begin where one has ended to begin a second serenade the comparisons are not so sound the comparisons are all the same. moving on or moving onto? i reach i grasp i hold on too. i think i thought i misconstrue. i do all i am wont to do. make new mistakes my local news tell torrid tales sing once-felt blues relive a life lost ignore abuse think flutter thoughts of what once had ruled. i consider i reconsider i exist as i was left. tossing turning overthrowing learning again how to forget.